did I?

Father, I keep asking myself today if I did anything right. I don't know why, but I'm having trouble getting myself out of this hole.

Did I help her with anything in her life? Was I just a terrible person that she was putting up with for months? 

Lord I don't know why but I can't shake this hold today. I feel like there's nothing I can do, so amount of apologies, that I can do or say to make up for anything.

I don't deserve anyone

Please crucify my flesh and heart everyday until I'm more like you, Lord.