a visit home

I went back to my home town (yea, my home town) today to see a friend, Em, who's back from college. I was early so I just read and went to mail a letter for D. God, I missed the commons. What I did find out, though, was that they are doing construction along the river...and thus my river spot also and I couldn't go read there. It was sad that I didn't get to see it =/ 

Another note, I straightened my hair. Omg it's so smooth hehehehe. I only straightened some of it (yea I don't think I'll ever get hair long enough to have a good straightening) so if I brush my hair a bit more the original fuzzy hair comes up from underneath x.x Normally, with this amount of hair I'll have to get a haircut real soon. With straightened hair, though, it's so much flatter and it actually settles! I might not need a haircut for another like...month or so. We'll see, though :) 


So how was my day? We went to grab some food, aka scallion pancakes (yes China Sky's is much better than Great Mandarin's, it's like a revelation) and some rice and dumplings. It was 3pm something when we got there so there was no one at the restaurant. Oh yea, we pretty much managed to confused the heck out of the waitress when we said we wanted to split the bill. I don't know how we did it, but she was beyond confused and I kinda felt bad haha...oh well. I guess I should probably refrain from more munny spending this summer if I don't plan on getting a job, shouldn't I..


Nevertheless, it was a good time to be getting food and talking about just random stuff. We should definitely do it again..and probably small amounts of munny next time hah...I'm going broke too, Em. 


Oh by the way, I looked through my posts looking for something that I thought I wrote and realized that I never actually wrote one. So here it is: 

I was going through my old wall posts and I came upon one post that caught my attention. It was your post about visiting me at DD last summer for coolattas (which are, btw, a way to OD on sugar but I guess it's ok). I would like to say thanks because your "I miss you" comment was the first one that did not sound obligated, a first "I miss you" that did not sound obligated or forced, if you know what I mean. Let me see how I should put this...it was the first time that I actually felt missed by someone. Yes, other people have said similar things, but for the most part those words were just words. I think it's important to out how "I miss you" is such an easy obligated phrase to say, even though I've never found myself saying that just because a situation called for such a phrase; rather, when I say it, I actually mean it. I'm not sure what went through my head when I first read that comment, but it certainly wasn't much because I only realized it after I went back and looked at it a couple more times. It was then when I realized that I knew how I felt when I read that but I couldn't put it to words at first. 


So I want to say thanks. It might not be anything to you, but it meant a lot to me. Thank you, Em. 

Oh yea! This was the A Capella cover I was talking about :)


Wow it's only 10. This is a record. Well, I think I'm gonna go take a shower and then probably a game of LoL but sleep after. Good day though :) It was good being back to my town for a bit. 

suggestion?

So I'm thinking of doing a weekly thing with a song, so like a song of a week thing. That way I can at least post once per week xD What do you guys think? :3 


Oh yea so the post office opens tomorrow...so letters shall be sent tmw xD 


Also, take a read at this article. :') RIP Marina Keegan. I never knew you, but everything you said I've felt before and I am sure to say that we are rather alike. You and your words will be in my thoughts tonight. Rest in peace, Marina. 

summer days 2

Alright, let's try this again. 


Signing up for MCAT means that I've got a ton of stuff to study. I will probably also look for a part-time job but I don't know where to look since it's gotta be close to my house and all, and the closest one is BJ's haha. Well maybe I'll try there and see if I can find a decent job that isn't just straight up manual labor. 

I keep having minor headaches every morning for the past three days or so. I'm not sure why and it's really bothering me. Plus, I'm playing tennis later and it's not gonna end pretty if it keeps throbbing. =/ I mean the weather's great out so maybe it'll cease the moment I step out...meh. 


Hold on let me grab some food to munch.


Ok, got some fish and soy milk and bread. Yumm. 


Summer. The days without alarm clocks and calendar (actually that's a lie because I'd sleep in without an alarm lol); when you literally watch TV all day and it's fine. Of course you can do whatever you want unless you have a job, which sadly I don't :( But then also, in my case, I got stuff to do. I'm learning Rylynn on guitar (the song requires a partial capo and my capo is kinda up for the job...), a few other pieces of music on the piano, and lots of tennis and gym. And of course, MCAT as previously mentioned. 


Did I mentioned how the MCAT was $240? Why is it so damn expensive qq. 


By now, I believe that most of my old friends have come back from college already. I mean, a friend of mine just sent me a LAN party invitation this Friday. 


On another note, my parents want me to wake up like 7am every weekday to drive my brother to school. Uhhhhhhh no. I can drive him BACK, but I'm not gonna wake up that early. No way in hell. 


Mehh, I wanna go back to the commons in my old town and just sit under the tree and read or something. QQ. This town sucks there's nothing to do. Oh, speaking of that, I'll be moving back, actually :P Just don't know when or where (yea real plans..) But the plan is to definitely move back for my brother so he can be a junior at WHS. What a hassle to have moved away from WHS in the first place >.>


Well I gotta go do dishes and go research some medical schools and go get my brother and study and guitar and... lots of stuff. 


Oh yes, and the letters. They will be written today <3 


Later!

summer days....

Haha so I'm finally blogging before midnight :P It's only 10 pm! 


So I don't know if I mentioned that I have started reading The Hunger Games or not, but I have finished two books and I'm starting the final book. It's so gooooooood. Yea the movie left out some details and dialogue, but honestly I think they did a terrific job. 


On another note, I have signed up for a MCAT testing date on the 23rd of August :) 


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Omg, so I ended up teaching my brother chemistry for like, 2 hours, so now it's past midnight....ZZZZ Sorry D: 


I'll blog more tomorrow........ >< 

i need to stop blogging past midnight

That and stop blogging when I have a headache. Gosh, Tim. Why. 


Gonna make this short...sorry again. I just took my late pain killer pill and since I usually need two pills, this time will be weaker so heading off to sleep soon will help the pain killing. 


There are a lot of things I can talk about right now that I'm not gonna go into. Rather, what I really want to talk about are the letters I've gotten. And I've realized that we don't talk, and maybe I've made you feel like I haven't been talking a lot. If so I apologize. I think I now know how to solve that though, and I plan on finishing my letter tomorrow or the next after and send it by the end of the week. 


I just wanna let you know that what you wanna do with your letters to me - I'm totally fine with it; actually, it's an honor :) I could have said this in the letters I'm about to write but you know me - I can't help but just gotta say it first xP 


And also, need to apologize for being unable to write a letter for two months... Sorry D. I will get on it tomorrow! x.x 


OK need to head off now. G'night world, I will crash the server tomorrow with lots of typing and stuff :) 


Think of a good place and scene to fall asleep...

asdfjkl what is this

Gawd I'm like so mad. You know, given summer, it's exciting to be hanging out with people, chilling in the amazing weather, and just have nothing much to do and zero stress (for the most part). But then again there's always things that are better when you're at college than when you're at home. 


And one of them is your laundry won't randomly do itself and then ruin your ipod. 


Yea my dad randomly decided to grab my shorts and then drop them in the washer without checking through the pockets. Laundry wasn't even full and he just randomly decided to do laundry. Afterward he dried them too, and he was wondering why the laundry load was making so much noise in the drier. Gawd my dad is such a derp. He needs to just chill. 


Now I don't have my ipod on my trip to RI. This is slightly frustrating. 


But other than that...I'm still excited to see my friend up in RI. This trip will be so much fun :) 


And I better get a new ipod from him. jfdkal;fjdklaf;dkfjsdfjdskafhjdsa

so....summer is here!

Herrro, readers, so the morning plan didn't go as expected because, well, my alarm didn't go off and I ended up sleeping in. But that's ok because I'm here to blog! Hahaha...alright enough with the justifications. 

Haha this is like me during summer, but without the vacuum

That finals week was pretty much horrendous because of the consecutive exams and the report one day after another. Thankfully though, I did very well on my orgo and that will give me at least three A's. So far looking good for my GPA :D 


Now I think of it, I actually have a lot of things to talk about. How my semester ended, my college career is now half way over, the people I met, got to know, and loved; the plans for the summer, the resolutions, the goals, plans for next year, possible minor in something else other than the science field, and so much more. 


But what I really want to get to is the people part. 


But I shall get into each topic one by one. 


My semester ended with those chaotic finals, but actually I'm gonna omit the topic of finals because I will simply end up complaining about the amount of work and stuff even though for the most part they turned out decent. My roommate and I kinda fell into this big swirl of laziness at the end of classes and a little before finals. That said, it meant like we started picking up video games and such, which was obviously not the best idea to do prior to the finals week but yet we both end up doing well (because we're beast like that, of course :D) I also learned a few new card games over that period, like Mao, Spades, and Rummy (I think there are other ones but I forget, but it's k). Also I'll be in a triple with an old high school friend next year along with Mike. We shall be living literally 2 minutes from the dining hall (and not on the atrocious hill) also so I'm definitely looking forward to that. :D 


Oh yea, it also just hit me a few days before school got out that I would be half way done with college, and then the real world will literally be in my face. As exciting as that sounds, it's a bit frightful also because I'm not sure if I can get into med school and if not, what am I gonna do? Probably some research job or graduate school. But then that experience wouldn't be real life yet, wouldn't it? Idk I just gotta kick up a few notches and bang out this MCAT this summer and the next if necessary. This means that most likely no job for me this summer *hmm*. 


Now, back to the topic I wanted to talk about. 


I've met so many new people this year. And honestly it's probably the best thing I can say about this year is sole fact that I made so many more friends this semester. It's a bit sad how we will be all scattered around campus next year but that doesn't stop friends from fun, right? 

I gotta say, I've found that the definition of love have changed numerous of times for me during this semester. From those whom I've met, the things they said, other events, what I felt from others-just many different things that shifted the once adamant meaning of love a bit. An example would be that I have constantly found myself to see if there is love around to be found, but after this semester, after being with so many lovely people and faces, I realized that I don't want a relationship because at this stage, love is too fragile to keep any two people together, and I hate that reality. I know it's different for me because I will try, but I can't say for the other person and I don't want history to repeat. Some might say that you want to experience love first, but that sort of love is not worthy. If you don't love someone enough to keep trying, why start it in the beginning? You don't just try it without committing yourself. If you try it, commit. 


Yea, I know I might be missing out on the most precious and irreplaceable feelings, but I don't want to lead myself in or be led on again when nothing was ever there. I rather not experience love if that's the cost.  


Unless someone will try as much as I do to keep up a relationship, I will not tread into that territory. 


^ Just want to lay all of that down for now. What else...ah, so this summer, need to work out, study a shit load for MCAT, take MCAT, be awesome, lots of tennis, go for a huge reunion in boston when possible...uhh....yea hopefully more fun things to come.


I'm thinking of minoring in chemistry at the moment but I'm also thinking of minoring in graphics and animation instead of chemistry. Majoring in biology and minor in animation was once my goal back in high school, so I'm reconsidering it. I'm just not sure what I need to take to do that minor. Honestly, if I end up not doing the chemistry minor I can do totally combine animation and biochemistry into one and make kickass animations. :D 


Alright I think that's it for now...damn this is a long post. Whatever! Gotta go do some chores and then hit up a friend or two for tennis :D I should be able to visit a friend of mine in Providence early next week but we'll see :) Also, I'm gonna be a book worm this summer and like finish all the books in the world or something :) 


That's it, hopefully your summer (or near summer) is coming along nicely. Catchya later~ 

back home once again

I totally have this habit of blogging when everyone else is asleep, or it's like pretty damn late. Well here it is, 1:30am and I'm blogging. So bad. 


And BECAUSE of this bad habit I can't really blog much (right now) cause, well, it's late. But I  promise DEFINITELY PROMISE this time that I will blog in the morning. A full length, actual post but not much of this short update crap. 


But yea, I'm HOME from sophomore year of college and summer's about to start. 


I shall fill in the rest tomorrow morning after gym. 


G'night peeps! 

omg all this work to do

Ok so basically I have been dead busy with everything. Literally everything. Like EVERYTHING. Every single class has so much work, this finals week is killing me. I need to finish my scientific paper like tmw, and I got to study tons and tons and a SHIT LOAD of orgo. 


Fml. Went to my bio final today, left with a migraine. QQ


Proceeded to do absolutely nothing tonight. Yea, it's a Friday night, trying to justify it, but honestly I very well could have finished my report. 


Fuck.