a click of the tongue, a glimpse of the horizon

Only about three months ago, I stayed awake on a trip I'd normally fall asleep, only to come back to a home I'd known for less than 2 months, to a home that I'd only know sometimes up to only 12 hours of the day, arguably half of my summer.

On my last day home of the summer of 2013, I thought I'd do a quick reflection post.

3 day until...

FREEDOM.

MCAT is wednesday. In 3 days (technically 2 but yea).

And then two days of freedom (I guess it's all gonna be packing...)

And then back to school on Saturday!

AND THEN I CAN START ALL MY TV SHOWS AND ANIME.

This is all too exciting I can't

Taking a practice test today, review a few more things, taking it easy on Tuesday, and then crunch time!

Wish me luck!!

my internship at Genzyme

My last week at Genzyme is next week, and I'm taking Monday off for a doctor's appointment. Since my time there is coming to an end, I thought I'd write a little about my experiences so far.

First thing's first, I really enjoyed my time there. Of course, it would have been a better and less tiring experience if the site at which I worked was 15 mins away rather than a one-hour shuttle journey each way, but it was clearly worth the commuting time.

Secondly, I think I'll talk briefly of what I worked on.

I basically helped a R&D group, specifically the Biological Mass Spectrometry group, work on developing an assay to measure enzymatic activity for a certain disease, an assay for Niemann-Pick that could potentially become one of the screenings required for newborns.

Yea, sounds quite cool, right? And I'm proud to say that, in the least, we have obtained promising data during my last 2-3 weeks of my internship. I mean, better than leaving without good progress, right?

This entire summer, while extremely exhausting and draining, was very productively and rewarding. I learned so much at Genzyme, undoubtedly in the science aspect, as well as professionally and interpersonally. The people I met were incredibly helpful and patient; they mentored and guided me every step of the way that I only have positive things to say about them.

My time at Genzyme had definitely exceeded my expectations of an internship alone, and I am beyond lucky and grateful for University Relations to have given me this incredible opportunity to work with them.

If time allows, I will not hesitate to go back.

switching gears

After some thoughts, I'm planning on taking a week off of work to study for MCAT.

For a few reasons:

summer part 1

After about two weeks of this hectic summer, I decided to reflect on my work schedule and such.

My daily weekday schedule goes like this:

6:00 am : wake up
6:20 am : leave the house
7:10 am : catch shuttle to Genzyme
7:45 am : arrive at Genzyme
8:00 am : work "starts" (lol I'm usually the one of the first ones there)
4:30 pm : get off work, take shuttle to another shuttle stop
5:15-5:30 pm : catch shuttle back to Boston
6:20 pm : arrive at Boston, parent pick me up and we head home
7:00 pm : dinner (around then)
8:00 pm - 10:00 pm : doze off, tries to study, the interwebs
10:00 pm - 12:00 am : trying to actually go to sleep lol

How is this working out so far? I think it has been alright, and considering I have been increasingly becoming less tired each day by the time I get home, I'd say that my body is slowly adjusting to this rather "healthier" lifestyle. The only catch is that I will be starting MCAT classes tomorrow, about twice a week from 7-10pm. This means I'll have to eat dinner either on the car (leftovers, probably) and basically crash after I get home.

I'll talk a little bit of what I do at Genzyme, in my mass spectrometry group.

For the past two weeks or so, I have been preparing samples (brain this time) for MS analysis. In other words, I had lots of aliquots, solutions, and buffers that I needed to prepare. For the most part they're decently easy, and I'd say that the major problem lies in my unfamiliarity with the building itself, as I have already found myself lost countless times when I'm looking for a lab, the storage closet, reagents, solutions, etc etc.

At the weekly meeting during my first week there, groups performed some presentations of what they have been doing, etc. It was interesting to see their current progress, and the meeting got rather exciting when one of the reports touched on UPR's and post-mods. I chuckled to myself ;) My manager said I may be helping out with other parts of her research, which--to mention one--would include some cell cultures and such.

There are a few downsides, however:

1. The shuttle that takes me back to Boston has this horrendous driver. I simply cannot not feel sick to my stomach (literally) taking that shuttle back because he needs to stop slamming on the gas in Boston and cruising up 40's and then slamming on the breaks right after. Worst driver I have ever ridden with, no doubt. 
2. The computer I work at is technically a data analysis computer, and apparently it means it has very limited access to many things--or at least, not as much access as a normal user computer. I have run into numerous authorization issues regarding folder access, training access, and even email access on my first day. There may be a chance that I can get moved to another desk but I'm not counting on that. Everything else works fine on it, just certain things just NOPE. 
3. My direct deposit is like major-derping right now. They emailed me last Friday about my void check being insufficient to set up my direct deposit. I had to wait until Tuesday to call them (since I work earlier and get out of work later than my bank branch -_____- ). I ended up running to the bank Saturday to pick up the documents because the ones I requested from the call hasn't even come in yet. Now that he has all the documents, I hope I get paid soon (it's a good amount too...for a college student lol) 

At least I have a decent view out my window :D

Schedule-wise, this will be most of my summer, (un)fortunately. Guessing my internship ends around the 16th of August, I have a few other things planned for the last two weeks of summer. They are:

1. MCAT; I have to reschedule my current test date (July 26th) to Aug 22nd or 28th. It's $90 to reschedule. Yea. $90. Almost fell out of my chair when I saw that. 
2. An endoscopic microsurgery (for nasal polyps) -____- that should be the last week of summer, I believe, since my parents believe I might need a week to recover. 

Well that's that, for my early summer. I hope your summers have been much less busy than mine has been!

getting lost four times over

Tuesday (May 21) was my first day of internship at Genzyme.

I went in around 9 to the building written on the assignment sheet they gave me at orientation. Since the door required clearance and my badge did just that, I was feeling quite professional until I took two step into the building and became instantly lost. I was able to find someone to ask for my manager's office and this lady was kind enough to take me to her office.

And it turned out to be the other building that's connected to the building I went in. -_____________-

My first day, like my friend said, consisted of a lot of paperwork, setting things up, making sure my sanofi profile runs fine and such. Actual science work included making a few solutions of different mixes and concentrations.

The building is like a rectangle that circles around on each floor. I totally got lost like 10 times just trying to find my way around the place. But the people were great, and a guy from the orientation ended up a part of my research group as well. Very exciting :)


Oh yea, this is my view out of my desk.

I ended up leaving at 5:30 when I thought I'd leave at 5. I missed the 5:10 pm shuttle. I had to wait for the 6:10 in the building when it was pouring out, and the shuttle arrived at 6:30 thanks to traffic. I ended up home around 8pm >.<

After today, I realized that this week may be sorta a bad week for me as an intern because my supervisors have their own specific tasks to do and are often very busy. They would give me an assignment but only able to teach me the procedures verbally before leaving to work on their stuff, and I really have to wait till they're back to ask questions. For example, today I was supposed to do a whole series of aliquots for a lipid sample, but there were about five main parts and I only remembered up to three of them ish. Furthermore, I had to leave at 4:30 to catch the 5:10 shuttle back to Genzyme Center so I left at the normal time. I would have stayed and waited for someone to come back so I can probably finish all the aliquots, but I had to leave.

Oh well. I hope we can get all that stuff done and sorted out tomorrow. In any case, though, the lab is very exciting. The only downside is that I have to wake up around 6am everyday now :( I have to do that so I can leave by 4:30 to catch the 5:10 shuttle back home.

Let's see how long it'll take my body to get used to this drastic change of lifestyle.

And I cannot be more glad that the MCAT class hasn't started

But that should be all. It is now 10:32 pm and I should shower and head off really soon...yea. G'night guys!

a bit of fortune

How about a piece of good news to start off this post? I got a lab research internship position for this summer! I'm beyond excited about this. It's going to be a great experience, looks amazing on my resume, and it pays well also. The only slight downside is that I will be commuting-40 mins, to be exact-to and from work. I mean, I got the position, so I'm not complaining much!

Also, I have just learned that, since the research lab will be focused on MS and biomarkers, I talked to a chemistry adviser today and found out two professors who also have MS researches and would be extra interested in considering me for a lab research position if I do approach them on the topic next semester. Yet another amazing news! I will have to definitely follow up on them right when next semester starts. The good news was followed by an atrocious, yet standard and inevitable, amount of paperwork and legal forms. After a short period of stress and mental breakdown, I figured out what and how to fill out most forms and was able to send them in, on time I believe. 

Since I'm on the topic of chemistry, I guess I'll put some of that here as well. I was originally aiming to do a chemistry minor. However, with my current pace, if I am lucky I can graduate a semester early because I am fairly certain that I can finish all the required classes for both a BS in BMB and the minor in chemistry. I decided on adding chemistry as a second major about a week ago and I finally was able to set up an advising appointment today with a chem adviser. We talked about my options and it turns out I could get a BA in chemistry with about 4-5 more courses. With my given semester courses, this is totally doable. I mean, the two semesters will obviously be harder than just 3 classes / 0 classes (would now be 4-5 classes in the fall / 4 in the spring), but all I can think of is the fact that I'm lucky to be able to do a double major even when I only have one year to spare. I was only lucky because I wanted to do a chem minor a while back, and that most of the courses I took for the minor overlap with a chem BA degree. Lucky all week, man I gotta tell you.

It is 2:24 am. I was gonna go to sleep earlier but I decided to watch the last two episodes of Breaking Bad season 1. And I did. And that was one and a half hour of...time gone. Blahhh, actually that wasn't the best decision. I totally could have saved it and watched it tomorrow, but now I'm like sleeping late and my sleep schedule continues to be beyond unhealthy. I gotta start fixing this before summer rolls around or I will not survive the 40-hour work weeks -______- 

But yea, it is now 2:41 (I went back and wrote out the other two paragraphs after I finished the one before this, hehe) and I really think I should go to bed. These are most of things I wanna talk about this post anyway. If I come up with others I will do another post tomorrow. 

G'night readers! Happy Easter :) And sorry, no picture this post :( 

P.S. OH, I shall write about the Surface Pro I got over spring break :D

moving perks

Just like any summer, there's always that great possibility that I might move again. And guess what! I'm moving again! I mean this time I'm moving back to my old town Winchester. I'm lucky enough to have boxes available from my old boss. Although moving this piano will be a pain as always. I don't even play it because it's terribly out of tune and I have a keyboard anyways (and I bring it to college). 


On a side note, I also noticed that my family have placed the base of the plasma TV slightly off and towards the back of the TV stand so that only about 70% of the base is actually on the stand, with the back edge of the base hanging off the back. I noticed this when I took apart the table next to the TV stand, and I was rather shocked that they did that because, even though nothing has happened (thank God), this is a terrible idea and should never do that to any TV. I'll make sure of that after we move...sorta, if I have enough time to before I go back to school. 


Since I've moved so much, I guess I will mention some "perks" of relocating all and every single item you own, if you will. 


1) You get to clean out the ENTIRE house. When I said entire, I mean what's inside this box, that box, what's behind this drawer, inside the closet, behind the closet, pretty much under everything that's movable. 


2) You go through the "do I even need this" phase. My brother had boxed up quite a few art supplies that he thought would come in handy in case he has his spontaneous creative moments. Turns out that he had decided to toss out a decent chunk of his "collection." I mean, it all comes down to fewer things to carry over, right? It's all good! Same goes for books, like this (I don't know why) encyclopedia thingy that my dad has. He's recently been intrigued by the amount of information the internet can carry (that's my parents for you). When he found those books he just said, "wow I can Google faster." I have never been more proud. *man tears*


3) You find all the hidden treasures. Well, by treasures I mean more like the unexpected large number of ethernet cables that we own (same goes to coaxial and phone cords). I found my third grade group picture, taken at the basketball court. I don't even remember the people much anymore because that was back in Taiwan and...well, I was in third grade. I don't have the picture scanned yet but when I do, it's coming on here alright :) I'll do an edit.


4) Last but not least, the excitement of moving into a new home. Yea, it's exhausting and tedious, especially when you have so much shit that the presence of "stuff" just demotivates you. Once you pull through and get everything in those Dunkin's boxes, though, that stack of your property gives you a different sense of accomplishment. You also know that they don't have any sorts of junk in them (well, unless you decide that you want to keep some). You get to think, "ohhh, where do I put this," "what color do I paint my room," "we should get new furniture," "what's the view like from my window." 


Anyways, that's all for this post. An edit will follow when I get the picture scanned. 


Ugh I need to study for MCAT too. It's less than a month away now and I haven't finished 3 sections yet. I'm screwed zzz 


**Edit: Here's the picture! 

I'm the fifth one from the right with a white hat :3 Yea I was a bit camera-shy 

driving

A few...interesting things happened recently when I was on the road. 


First, last Saturday I was dropping by a friend's house to pick up an umbrella that I left in a friend's car. I was on my way back when a goose popped out of nowhere and was simply chilling in the middle of the road. There wasn't much I could do other than sitting there and kinda just watch it. It just stood there, looking left and right and honks a few times. I don't know if he/she was looking for goslings, but they were surely nowhere to be found in the vicinity. I honked at it twice and it started to walk towards the opposite lane. After about a minute and a half it entered the opposite lane enough for me to drive by. As it reached the center of that lane, though, there was an incoming car. I could see the driver's face that literally went "omg you be kidding me." Troll goose is troll. 


And then yesterday, when I was on my way to pick up my brother from ultimate practice, I took the left out of the apartment entrance and then about 5 seconds later a squirrel appeared out of no where. By the time I saw it the little guy was already inches from my right front wheel. I literally had 0.5 seconds to react, and plus even if I slammed on the breaks I would not have been able to stop the car in that period. And if I did, I would have smeared it more. But yea, the car went "clunk" and it was mushed... >< 


Damnit squirrels please look both sides before crossing the road, please :( 

more summer...and Korra

So I haven't posted in a while, sorry about that. 

Oh yea, this was totally on my mind

I've been catching up on Avatar so I can be up to date with Korra also. Did that pretty much all the past two weeks ish. Gotta say, though, this show is amazing. Season 1 just ended. I remember reading an article about the producers' comments before the finale aired, saying that they have planned a surprise for Korra's audience. Like every episode so far...I've missed them and redeemed myself afterwards by finding them online and watching them there lol. I guess I won't spoil anything, but the finale was some sort of a surprise, not much of a twist though. Of course I'm not saying that they let me down or anything, because personally I think it ended pretty well...except one little thing that I won't spoil xD Also, PABU IS THE CUTEST THING EVER. But no one can bypass Appa, sorry. No one. 

Now I gotta wait until the next season...this will be fun =/ 


This summer I finally got time to sign up for the road test and I just got my license last Monday! :P Now I go places, literally. ;) 


My family is looking for a house and we're trying to see if we can buy the house so we can move back to our old town. Having our own house will be such an experience and I can't wait x) Pray that everything goes well!! 


I've been feeling the desire to talk to someone, to share my thoughts, and then I realized that I don't even know what to say if someone does listen. Do you know that feeling? You want to talk to someone but you realize that you don't have anything to say. Then I realized that what I wanted was company. Just simple company. The moments when you feel a little down, the little hint of sadness, and you just want to have someone by your side. 


Maybe I just need more sleep. Sleep can solve this for a little bit, right? Dreams have some power...


Also, I have gotten like a few more followers on tumblr. It's been a happy week because of that too :P 


I think I'll close for now. The weather's been brewing up a few storms here and there, which means pretty much no tennis :( Gotta wait out this week...


Hope everyone's doing well :) 


-l.h- 

strength of heart

You know, looking back on my life, it's come to my attention that the definition of "being strong" is slightly ambiguous. I mean, what's the usual meaning? Be strong...when something's out of control, something didn't go your way, something/one hurt you...and the you try to be strong. "Be strong" is to not do stupid things? Not to take the easy way out? Or not to show emotions? What exactly is to "be strong" ? 


I don't know, maybe it's all of these; from my experience, I think it's more to do with not showing emotion / act happy. It's where you "stay strong" and act as nothing out of the ordinary has happened. It's almost like you ignore your past and you become nonchalant. Eventually, though, it becomes a sort of thing you say that tells people that you have learned from your past and it made you "stronger." I'm not sure if this means that the same thing can't hurt me as much as it did before, or whether I'm more indifferent. I think it's a mistake to assume that something can't hurt as much as it did because the detrimental nature of the event that hurt you in the first place will definitely hurt you again, so that rules out the first question. Since it's impossible to simply abandon the past, but then the experience has changed you, and you become more indifferent than you were ever before. I don't know if that's "normal," or, for that reason, "abnormal." 


With all this random stuff, I haven't even been able to answer my own question qq. I think to "be strong" is to not be affected by whatever even you are going through, and thus keep going with life. But yes, that is simply impossible to not be affected so there begins ways  one would adopt to create that false appearance, if you will. When you start to feel too much of the event and the effect it had on your life, you "break down" and end up releasing some emotions. 


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ALRIGHT. I guess enough of this depressing and me thinking too much. Now it's down on "paper"... What's been going on with me...


Ahh, right, a few things. First of all (and once again), this MCAT studying has brought me to the infamous topic of physics for which I have an intense passionate hatred. Seriously, I don't care about the physics portion. Too many numbers for my own good. The biology stuff is so much more interesting and I don't see why that can't be the only subject (plus chemistry, of course) on the MCAT. I'll never use the big 4 equations anyways...and here I thought physics was no more :( 


On another note, I tried to organize a lunch outing to a chinese/japanese restaurant that's about 30 minutes away with a few friends. Only a handful friends (or like...2 people) have responded, which means that the plan is not exactly falling into place at all D: Maybe I'll just ask more people, idk...The plan is to go this Sat, which means I need to sit down and start calling people! Hah. Wish me luck now. 


Ok so, it's summer, and I'm not sure why it's been 55 degree for the past week. I guess it's fine to have a little rain once in a while, and yes I love rain, but 1) not at home, 2) it's too cold for summer, and 3) I can't do anything sport-wise. This is frustrating =/ 


I'm thinking of getting a baby guitar with nylon strings. MAYBE with a banjo capo so I can play Rylynn correctly lol. 


Oh yea, had that dream again. Heh. 


That reminds me (no idea how), I asked a few friends of mine to describe me in a few sentences because I think my bio section requires a different format. A friend sent me a poem that was absolutely hilarious, and another just wrote like one sentence. Maybe I'll ask more peeps but...we'll see if I actually get enough for a new bio. :) 


So Staples managed to screw up a project of a friend of mine a week ish ago, and now they gave me a rebate that was due a day after day of purchase. I saw the rebate section on the receipt four days after I went to Staples. What the hell, Staples QQ. 


Alright, I gotta go do chores, and then pick up my brother...later guys :) 


Btw, totally doing this when I become a doctor. 

I want to make sure

Woke up today with a rainy weather. It rained pretty heavily that it actually looked a bit like winter and it has snowed so everything outside looks grayish and white-ish. Normally I'd totally go out for a walk in a storm, but now that I'm home, it made me sleepier than usual...

So I've started studying for the MCAT, just to realize once again how much random stuff there is, like physics. Well actually I'm just complaining about physics, the rest I have to actually dig into. I have tons of biology to cover, and not so much anything else, really. Maybe I should skip all the other sections to go straight to the biology parts. 

I keep finding myself having the same dream, holding you as we said goodbye. I don't know why I've had that dream for at least the past three days, but I can say for sure that I really felt loved at that moment. I think that's the most accurate statement I can say about that moment. 

Maybe it wasn't just a dream. 

I was reminded that the book The Perks of Being a Wallflower will be coming out in theaters soon, ish. Well, in another 3 months but close enough. I'm super excited about it haha. I think I'm gonna watch Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close probably tomorrow or Monday. 

I want to make sure that the first person you kiss loves you. Okay? 

a visit home

I went back to my home town (yea, my home town) today to see a friend, Em, who's back from college. I was early so I just read and went to mail a letter for D. God, I missed the commons. What I did find out, though, was that they are doing construction along the river...and thus my river spot also and I couldn't go read there. It was sad that I didn't get to see it =/ 

Another note, I straightened my hair. Omg it's so smooth hehehehe. I only straightened some of it (yea I don't think I'll ever get hair long enough to have a good straightening) so if I brush my hair a bit more the original fuzzy hair comes up from underneath x.x Normally, with this amount of hair I'll have to get a haircut real soon. With straightened hair, though, it's so much flatter and it actually settles! I might not need a haircut for another like...month or so. We'll see, though :) 


So how was my day? We went to grab some food, aka scallion pancakes (yes China Sky's is much better than Great Mandarin's, it's like a revelation) and some rice and dumplings. It was 3pm something when we got there so there was no one at the restaurant. Oh yea, we pretty much managed to confused the heck out of the waitress when we said we wanted to split the bill. I don't know how we did it, but she was beyond confused and I kinda felt bad haha...oh well. I guess I should probably refrain from more munny spending this summer if I don't plan on getting a job, shouldn't I..


Nevertheless, it was a good time to be getting food and talking about just random stuff. We should definitely do it again..and probably small amounts of munny next time hah...I'm going broke too, Em. 


Oh by the way, I looked through my posts looking for something that I thought I wrote and realized that I never actually wrote one. So here it is: 

I was going through my old wall posts and I came upon one post that caught my attention. It was your post about visiting me at DD last summer for coolattas (which are, btw, a way to OD on sugar but I guess it's ok). I would like to say thanks because your "I miss you" comment was the first one that did not sound obligated, a first "I miss you" that did not sound obligated or forced, if you know what I mean. Let me see how I should put this...it was the first time that I actually felt missed by someone. Yes, other people have said similar things, but for the most part those words were just words. I think it's important to out how "I miss you" is such an easy obligated phrase to say, even though I've never found myself saying that just because a situation called for such a phrase; rather, when I say it, I actually mean it. I'm not sure what went through my head when I first read that comment, but it certainly wasn't much because I only realized it after I went back and looked at it a couple more times. It was then when I realized that I knew how I felt when I read that but I couldn't put it to words at first. 


So I want to say thanks. It might not be anything to you, but it meant a lot to me. Thank you, Em. 

Oh yea! This was the A Capella cover I was talking about :)


Wow it's only 10. This is a record. Well, I think I'm gonna go take a shower and then probably a game of LoL but sleep after. Good day though :) It was good being back to my town for a bit. 

summer days 2

Alright, let's try this again. 


Signing up for MCAT means that I've got a ton of stuff to study. I will probably also look for a part-time job but I don't know where to look since it's gotta be close to my house and all, and the closest one is BJ's haha. Well maybe I'll try there and see if I can find a decent job that isn't just straight up manual labor. 

I keep having minor headaches every morning for the past three days or so. I'm not sure why and it's really bothering me. Plus, I'm playing tennis later and it's not gonna end pretty if it keeps throbbing. =/ I mean the weather's great out so maybe it'll cease the moment I step out...meh. 


Hold on let me grab some food to munch.


Ok, got some fish and soy milk and bread. Yumm. 


Summer. The days without alarm clocks and calendar (actually that's a lie because I'd sleep in without an alarm lol); when you literally watch TV all day and it's fine. Of course you can do whatever you want unless you have a job, which sadly I don't :( But then also, in my case, I got stuff to do. I'm learning Rylynn on guitar (the song requires a partial capo and my capo is kinda up for the job...), a few other pieces of music on the piano, and lots of tennis and gym. And of course, MCAT as previously mentioned. 


Did I mentioned how the MCAT was $240? Why is it so damn expensive qq. 


By now, I believe that most of my old friends have come back from college already. I mean, a friend of mine just sent me a LAN party invitation this Friday. 


On another note, my parents want me to wake up like 7am every weekday to drive my brother to school. Uhhhhhhh no. I can drive him BACK, but I'm not gonna wake up that early. No way in hell. 


Mehh, I wanna go back to the commons in my old town and just sit under the tree and read or something. QQ. This town sucks there's nothing to do. Oh, speaking of that, I'll be moving back, actually :P Just don't know when or where (yea real plans..) But the plan is to definitely move back for my brother so he can be a junior at WHS. What a hassle to have moved away from WHS in the first place >.>


Well I gotta go do dishes and go research some medical schools and go get my brother and study and guitar and... lots of stuff. 


Oh yes, and the letters. They will be written today <3 


Later!

summer days....

Haha so I'm finally blogging before midnight :P It's only 10 pm! 


So I don't know if I mentioned that I have started reading The Hunger Games or not, but I have finished two books and I'm starting the final book. It's so gooooooood. Yea the movie left out some details and dialogue, but honestly I think they did a terrific job. 


On another note, I have signed up for a MCAT testing date on the 23rd of August :) 


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Omg, so I ended up teaching my brother chemistry for like, 2 hours, so now it's past midnight....ZZZZ Sorry D: 


I'll blog more tomorrow........ >< 

so....summer is here!

Herrro, readers, so the morning plan didn't go as expected because, well, my alarm didn't go off and I ended up sleeping in. But that's ok because I'm here to blog! Hahaha...alright enough with the justifications. 

Haha this is like me during summer, but without the vacuum

That finals week was pretty much horrendous because of the consecutive exams and the report one day after another. Thankfully though, I did very well on my orgo and that will give me at least three A's. So far looking good for my GPA :D 


Now I think of it, I actually have a lot of things to talk about. How my semester ended, my college career is now half way over, the people I met, got to know, and loved; the plans for the summer, the resolutions, the goals, plans for next year, possible minor in something else other than the science field, and so much more. 


But what I really want to get to is the people part. 


But I shall get into each topic one by one. 


My semester ended with those chaotic finals, but actually I'm gonna omit the topic of finals because I will simply end up complaining about the amount of work and stuff even though for the most part they turned out decent. My roommate and I kinda fell into this big swirl of laziness at the end of classes and a little before finals. That said, it meant like we started picking up video games and such, which was obviously not the best idea to do prior to the finals week but yet we both end up doing well (because we're beast like that, of course :D) I also learned a few new card games over that period, like Mao, Spades, and Rummy (I think there are other ones but I forget, but it's k). Also I'll be in a triple with an old high school friend next year along with Mike. We shall be living literally 2 minutes from the dining hall (and not on the atrocious hill) also so I'm definitely looking forward to that. :D 


Oh yea, it also just hit me a few days before school got out that I would be half way done with college, and then the real world will literally be in my face. As exciting as that sounds, it's a bit frightful also because I'm not sure if I can get into med school and if not, what am I gonna do? Probably some research job or graduate school. But then that experience wouldn't be real life yet, wouldn't it? Idk I just gotta kick up a few notches and bang out this MCAT this summer and the next if necessary. This means that most likely no job for me this summer *hmm*. 


Now, back to the topic I wanted to talk about. 


I've met so many new people this year. And honestly it's probably the best thing I can say about this year is sole fact that I made so many more friends this semester. It's a bit sad how we will be all scattered around campus next year but that doesn't stop friends from fun, right? 

I gotta say, I've found that the definition of love have changed numerous of times for me during this semester. From those whom I've met, the things they said, other events, what I felt from others-just many different things that shifted the once adamant meaning of love a bit. An example would be that I have constantly found myself to see if there is love around to be found, but after this semester, after being with so many lovely people and faces, I realized that I don't want a relationship because at this stage, love is too fragile to keep any two people together, and I hate that reality. I know it's different for me because I will try, but I can't say for the other person and I don't want history to repeat. Some might say that you want to experience love first, but that sort of love is not worthy. If you don't love someone enough to keep trying, why start it in the beginning? You don't just try it without committing yourself. If you try it, commit. 


Yea, I know I might be missing out on the most precious and irreplaceable feelings, but I don't want to lead myself in or be led on again when nothing was ever there. I rather not experience love if that's the cost.  


Unless someone will try as much as I do to keep up a relationship, I will not tread into that territory. 


^ Just want to lay all of that down for now. What else...ah, so this summer, need to work out, study a shit load for MCAT, take MCAT, be awesome, lots of tennis, go for a huge reunion in boston when possible...uhh....yea hopefully more fun things to come.


I'm thinking of minoring in chemistry at the moment but I'm also thinking of minoring in graphics and animation instead of chemistry. Majoring in biology and minor in animation was once my goal back in high school, so I'm reconsidering it. I'm just not sure what I need to take to do that minor. Honestly, if I end up not doing the chemistry minor I can do totally combine animation and biochemistry into one and make kickass animations. :D 


Alright I think that's it for now...damn this is a long post. Whatever! Gotta go do some chores and then hit up a friend or two for tennis :D I should be able to visit a friend of mine in Providence early next week but we'll see :) Also, I'm gonna be a book worm this summer and like finish all the books in the world or something :) 


That's it, hopefully your summer (or near summer) is coming along nicely. Catchya later~ 

back home once again

I totally have this habit of blogging when everyone else is asleep, or it's like pretty damn late. Well here it is, 1:30am and I'm blogging. So bad. 


And BECAUSE of this bad habit I can't really blog much (right now) cause, well, it's late. But I  promise DEFINITELY PROMISE this time that I will blog in the morning. A full length, actual post but not much of this short update crap. 


But yea, I'm HOME from sophomore year of college and summer's about to start. 


I shall fill in the rest tomorrow morning after gym. 


G'night peeps!