I don't know, maybe it's all of these; from my experience, I think it's more to do with not showing emotion / act happy. It's where you "stay strong" and act as nothing out of the ordinary has happened. It's almost like you ignore your past and you become nonchalant. Eventually, though, it becomes a sort of thing you say that tells people that you have learned from your past and it made you "stronger." I'm not sure if this means that the same thing can't hurt me as much as it did before, or whether I'm more indifferent. I think it's a mistake to assume that something can't hurt as much as it did because the detrimental nature of the event that hurt you in the first place will definitely hurt you again, so that rules out the first question. Since it's impossible to simply abandon the past, but then the experience has changed you, and you become more indifferent than you were ever before. I don't know if that's "normal," or, for that reason, "abnormal." With all this random stuff, I haven't even been able to answer my own question qq. I think to "be strong" is to not be affected by whatever even you are going through, and thus keep going with life. But yes, that is simply impossible to not be affected so there begins ways one would adopt to create that false appearance, if you will. When you start to feel too much of the event and the effect it had on your life, you "break down" and end up releasing some emotions.
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ALRIGHT. I guess enough of this depressing and me thinking too much. Now it's down on "paper"... What's been going on with me...
Ahh, right, a few things. First of all (and once again), this MCAT studying has brought me to the infamous topic of physics for which I have an intense passionate hatred. Seriously, I don't care about the physics portion. Too many numbers for my own good. The biology stuff is so much more interesting and I don't see why that can't be the only subject (plus chemistry, of course) on the MCAT. I'll never use the big 4 equations anyways...and here I thought physics was no more :(
On another note, I tried to organize a lunch outing to a chinese/japanese restaurant that's about 30 minutes away with a few friends. Only a handful friends (or like...2 people) have responded, which means that the plan is not exactly falling into place at all D: Maybe I'll just ask more people, idk...The plan is to go this Sat, which means I need to sit down and start calling people! Hah. Wish me luck now.
Ok so, it's summer, and I'm not sure why it's been 55 degree for the past week. I guess it's fine to have a little rain once in a while, and yes I love rain, but 1) not at home, 2) it's too cold for summer, and 3) I can't do anything sport-wise. This is frustrating =/
I'm thinking of getting a baby guitar with nylon strings. MAYBE with a banjo capo so I can play Rylynn correctly lol.
Oh yea, had that dream again. Heh.
That reminds me (no idea how), I asked a few friends of mine to describe me in a few sentences because I think my bio section requires a different format. A friend sent me a poem that was absolutely hilarious, and another just wrote like one sentence. Maybe I'll ask more peeps but...we'll see if I actually get enough for a new bio. :)
So Staples managed to screw up a project of a friend of mine a week ish ago, and now they gave me a rebate that was due a day after day of purchase. I saw the rebate section on the receipt four days after I went to Staples. What the hell, Staples QQ. Alright, I gotta go do chores, and then pick up my brother...later guys :)
Btw, totally doing this when I become a doctor.
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