*About me moving to a different town*
Me: Well, it feels like going away.
You: You're not going that far away.
I don't know what got me to look at those old texts. Maybe I was just cleaning out some stacked message threads; maybe I was just scrolling all the way to the bottom and saw people that only I start to text; maybe it was because of the names; maybe because I should have deleted those a while ago.
Yes, it is far away. Even though it's only about 2-3 miles away from my old town, now I never really leave the house unless I have a car. Do you know what that means? It means that when it gets too quiet, and the silence too loud, my heart will decide that it misses everyone.
And having a car is actually a decently rare occasion.
That means that I usually just stay home and, unfortunately, be antisocial. Of course, I try to hang out with people, but now that I live an inconvenient distance from everything (literally everything and everywhere), hanging out is farther down the drain than I wanted it to be.
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You know, it's not just your text. There are so many others in which conversations began because of me, and it stacks from my side for a few in a row until there's a reply. Or, it'd be a few weeks before the friend says "hi."
I don't know, why do I try?
*sigh* All of this past and memory thing are coming back to annoy me again. =/ So tired.
I want a dog.
LoL, some reading and homework, maybe pingpong, then bed. Peace.
Sorry to have gone on a hiatus for posting. School started back up a week ago and it's been rather hectic in terms of finding classes, organizing schedules, buying textbooks and materials and whatnot, fixing calendar and exam dates, etc etc.
Honestly, I bought like $300 worth of textbook and materials already and it would've been about another $150 if I didn't find one of them online. I may very well be planning on selling these back Q.Q
So let's see, first weekend! I feel like it's a good time to breakdown my classes just a bit first:
Molecular Biology: I'm super excited for this class; Prof Francis will be teaching it via diseases and honestly, this is gonna be great. You know they should just teach biology based on House episodes, how sweet would that be~ I guess the only unfortunate part is the weekly quizzes, just like Bio 100 and 101. Ohhhh well.
Organic 2: So far so good, it's been two lectures or so and we've been learning about NMR an related spectroscopy techniques. I think he is acceptable with his currently method of elaboration. I don't particularly like his note-taking style, but maybe it's just some getting used-to.
BioChem Lab: Oh man, this lab is gonna be long as hell. But at the same time we'll be learning recombination DNA and restricting enzymes and we'll get to use lab coats and it's just gonna be an awesome lab experience. Those multichannel pippetes are the coolest thing ever xD
Physics 2 - Obviously, nothing really to say about this class. Heath Hatch = the man with his awesome demos and crystal clear explanations. Looking forward to this class as well.
Genetics - Still waiting on the text book, but this class is so far interesting, but I can sense the difficult parts coming in with all these new ideas and new terms. It will get tough nevertheless interesting.
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Thinking of going to the mall today, probably not if I can't find ppl to go with. I should go deposit some munny but it'll be a waste of time if I don't do something else at the mall and go just to deposit munny. Mhm. Oh well in any case, getting wings tonight!
LoL and reading today. Getting lunch soon. Later :)
Meanwhile, enjoy this pink flying llama/unicorn I found:
I recently read a post by someone I follow, and it made me realize that I should perhaps try to restart the friendship anew. The past is in the past, and a new friendship is the better ending than two people ending on bad terms. So I have decided that I will, next time I see her, rebuild that friendship and start anew, redo what we enjoyed doing, discuss all that we did before. Maybe spring break, maybe summer, but I will make this happen.
Heading back to school tomorrow afternoon ish! :)
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I really should jump on Everything is Illuminated; I saw the movie (again), and after reminding myself of a few scenes, I realized that I will not burn those letters. In fact, maybe I will bury them, by the river (heh, only half-a-handful of ppl know about that place too, oh well)
But I will bury them, or keep them somewhere. In case, you know, someone comes looking for them.
I mean, it's not gonna come back without feelings. It's not because I want people to come find them either, but simply-in case.
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I don't know why, but looking at her picture again gave me a realization. That is, I think I'm just in love with love. Maybe...that I was in love with how she "loved" me. That's why I'm afraid to love again because I don't want that to happen again.
A friend of mine posted on my fb wall with a link to an article that says Wiki will initiate a "blackout" in protest of SOPA, starting in about 12 hours from now.
I must say, I have slightly anticipated such action from at least some websites, and judging from wiki's blackout (for 24 hours starting at 05:00 UTC on Jan 18th) we can very clearly see the impact of SOPA if it were to pass. For beginners, not just wiki would be affected, but also major sites such as youtube, blogs, tumblr, images sharing sites, social networks, and even search engines.
Yes, piracy poses a problem to copyrights and that is what they're aiming to shut down with SOPA, but again their proposals are too broad to narrow down piracy and would altogether bring down the internet as it is. Given the current piracy technologies, if you will, there is almost nothing you can't pirate these days. Nevertheless, I think there are other ways of preventing piracy if that's their main goal, just not SOPA.
I'm not altogether too worried about SOPA being passed as it seems to me that most individuals realize the extend and the power of SOPA in destroying the internet itself, and not just piracy.
I shall wait and see my own reaction to a Wiki-less wednesday tomorrow; it's gonna be very interestingly frustrating. Haha.
Aye..here's the headache in the morning again. I'm pretty sure my headache wasn't catching a breeze from the window at all last night. Maybe my arm was kinda not under the covers...idk, I have a headache again =/ Time to look for the tylenol my parents took from me...
And then again with the weird dreams! Omg, this time like it was that big monster cloud thing from Green Lantern that was destroying the world, and I like had a newborn baby to protect and I apparently got shot in the back, but it was hokay (lol). I like hid in buildings and places and such. I don't remember if I actually got rid of the monster but what I know is the dream was absolutely intense and that's probably why I woke up with a headache lol. Oh well, woke up a bit late anyways, so much for having slept really well the day before.
Got like actual artsy paper from Michael's today. Gonna write back to my pen-pal now :D One last week till I go back to school! Can't wait.
And Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close comes out in four days. I think I'll see who's around still and grab peeps to go see that, if they want :) So excited!
Bought Trees of Codes and Walking Back to Happiness, so I have two books to start my semester. Good step for my "resolution," I think, haha.
So you wrote it down I'm supposed to care, even though it's never there
Sorry if I'm not prepared
Is it hard to see the things yo substitute for me and all my thoughts of you?
-YC
For some reason I've been waking up these days with a headache and then the next without. This has been alternating for the past five days or so already. I tried to find the causes behind the headaches, from the daily activities of those five days or so, but none has made any differences.
Haha, maybe it has something to do with what I dreamed last night. It was about my watch that decided that it has the ability to transform in to two other modes (bear with me, it still doesn't make sense, too much CIA gadget stuff going on here). It can transform from like this original, plastic cover and metallic design into this metal casing that feels like a titanium finish. Then it can also turn into a cheaper feeling plastic watch with like beads as the watchbands....idk it was just weird as hell.
Ohhh what is vacation doing to me lol.
Going out to lunch. Hope my headache goes away. Later guys :)
