december, 40 degrees with a chance of confusion

So I was going to blog on the first also, but then it was orgo all day. So much acidity, basicity, nucleophilicity, leaving group ability, Sn1, Sn2, and like a zilean processes and mechanisms...all day ever'day until last night. Studies about 15 hours for the past two days, and I think I did alright on the exam last night. 


So the first day of December. Physics lab was to mess around with liquid nitrogen, absolutely fun. We cruised through that lab under an hour, measuring latent heat with timers and balances and frozen pencils and erasers. Went to dinner right after and then straight orgo studying with a few peeps. 


It was roughly the same for Friday, except there was a discussion in the morning and then a costume contest in my classics class also. What totally surprised me was how my anthropology professor was actually at the discussion. I didn't even notice her until she started speaking/giving opinion while we were discussing the topics. I don't know, just very uncalled for, really x) And the costume contest went decently well, those who participated got extra credit points, I believe. There was also this really cute girl who was Demeter...okk w/e. 


Anyways, I didn't sleep well Thursday night so took a nap Friday before dinner and exam, and ended up "ditching" people who wanted to squeeze in a last-minute study in the lounge. I was like yea I can't function without nap right now, and I kinda went an hour after, and there was only one person there anyways. Lazy people, I tell you. 


You know, aside from the keyboard, I think I want a book for Christmas. 


Get ready for lunch then lab. Pce. 

about me

Yea, again bad hour but my brain is good at thinking at such hours. But I decided to make a new about me section. Here goes. 

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“I like to see people reunited, I like to see people run to each other, I like the kissing and the crying, the stories that the mouth can’t tell fast enough, the ears that aren’t big enough, the eyes that can’t take in all of the change, I like the hugging, the bringing together and the end of missing someone” (Foer = fav author) 

This is a typical full-time college sophomore working part time.

I absolutely love Yellowcard, just up front.

I blog to vent and to share my thoughts. I believe that people who blog are brilliant, passionate, and deep thinkers, and I absolutely love that and would love to read everyone's blog :) 


Actually, how it started was I began a blog a very very long time ago. I dropped it for about two years, and then picked it back up a year ago, when a friend of mine brought up the topic. We got closer with the blogs. We walked the tracks together for a while, and then she got on a train with a flick of a finger, blink of an eye. Blog went from being sharing to venting, to depressing keys and minor tones. Honestly, if you decide to visit that old blog, it is so dark there, for three or four months straight. 


Yea yea I know I feel too much. It's part of being human. 

In any case, I have recently switched to blogger just to try it out. So far I'm liking it more than wordpress. Not sure if I want to import my old blog here (can I even do that?) But either case, here's my old blog for anyone interested: http://salaheonerezza.wordpress.com/

I surf imgfave like a religion and listen to 8tracks like it's my itunes. 

I sing almost every time I walk alone. I play air piano. I air-strum.

I can click really loud with my tongue.

House, Naruto, FMA, Bleach, Fairy Tail, Reborn, and other awesome mangas.

Oh, and I have a so-called "Asian-fro" (my hair is poofy)

I love hugs, too. It's been too long since I actually hugged. Maybe that's why I haven't been able to get a hundred percent better. *shrug* 

blogger acting weird

For some reason, not all the blogs I follow show up under subscriptions. Adding them in is fine. It's the blogs disappearing after I close the page that is annoying me =/ Going back for some research time, I suppose. Google never fails me. 


And I'm not sure how to default a font on the template. I seem to be having trouble finding the link/how to get to such settings if there are such. Any ideas? 


Confusion is super effective...

first wednesday physics class

A few things. First of all, today I decided to go to physics class for the first time, the day after my physics exam. Woke up at 9 am, roommate got so confused lol.

Came to class, and first thing professor said was you are not smart. Great timing, I got there, eh? Lol. Well now he's just talking there and I'm just sitting here, blogging. And honestly, so far he hasn't taught us anything new. Hm.

Yes. Demos. He's pulling out liquid nitrogen and pouring it into a water bottle...oh shit he's capping it now...and putting it in a trash can...ohhh shit it's gonna blow.

Yep, it blew, after like 2 mins. We all thought it was leaking instead by then xD

So another thing, I've been remembering my dreams, a lot of them, recently. I'll update more later, gotta go to class.

Edit (at 2am):

After dinner, went on a straight four-hour orgo study session. We progressed through the materials slower than expected, so I have more stuff to do tomorrow...could've been more productive really, but we have a decent number of people who showed up so I guess it's acceptable, as long as everyone got the material.

And I have lab tomorrow, more studying tomorrow, exam Friday, lab Saturday, and ecology assignment (most likely) Sunday. Great stuff, man. And I still need to go see my professor about a research opportunity. Gawd, why don't I just run a farm full of holy brown cows.

another note

Oh yea, on another note, this shall be a shout-out. 


It's (was) my awesome pen-pal's birthday! =D I hope she had the most wonderful day. 


Ok a little Skyrim and more orgo. 

busybusyweek

Woke up with headache once again, brain I thought we're over that q.q Tylenol, kick in now, will you? 

I was breezing through physics problems last night to prepare for my test today, and it just occurred to me that my professor just didn't bother to give back formula sheets and that I always have to keep making them. He doesn't even use it or look at it, I don't think, so he shouldn't be keeping them. Honestly. I want my ultra-neatly written pass back q.q 

Orgo is getting quite crazy with all the memorizing and reasoning, with about 20 mechanisms and processes learned so far. Naming's good, for the most part, the reagents are still a little cloudy, but I will get them by Friday. All these methods of hydrogenation...holy brown cow. 

On another note, I realized that blogger is actually kinda better, in a way. I haven't explored much of the theme capabilities yet, but since there are lots of limitations with wordpress, I figured that others would have a better chance of having more varieties in themes and personalizations. 

Also, there are absolutely so many good movies coming out. Gawd, there are roughly five or so coming out next month alone. And then about 3 more in the following 2-3 months. Godamnit. I'm gonna go broke in no time..

Oh, and yea, for unknown reasons I've been remembering my dreams. A lot of them. One of them was I actually decided to hug you. Maybe it is behind me, idk. But I don't think this is a bad thing.

Okkkk headache, chill out, I'll go buy you a frappuccino or something, ok? I need to walk down to the dining hall through tumbling to my demise. 

No ecology today. Made my day. Will study more physics and then orgo. 

If I get some free time this week (before exam on Friday), I shall do some major theme change. Look forward to it? Any suggestions or tips? Gimme! ^^

And I'm gonna get a Free Hugs shirt for realz this time. 

That's it for now, heading down to lunch with peeps. 

-l.h-

cramped and cramped

Sitting here, wind blowing out the window, trees swaying, leaves shot up in their journeys, carefree cars,  warmth coming down, music playing, syllabi pasted all over the wall, inside-out ring, unfinished readings.

This post is for a friend of mine.

You said you want to know what people feel. The happy things, the sad, melancholy; the laughter, tears, frustrations, confusions, misunderstandings, jealousy...everything that's felt, with open or closed eyes, with whole or broken hearts, with logic or without, with him, or her, or you.

That is the also the reason why you talk to me, right?

Did you also mean that you want to feel them too? I'm not sure because you didn't say. And because those two are very different.

I'm not sure how to phrase this other than you talk to me out of curiosity, and I'm not sure what to think of that.

I think I still am naive. I thought that I could easily put this behind me, but everything and everyone I see will remind me of something. Yes, even you.

And damn, I told you how deep it was. I told you how much I loved her. You told me yours. Maybe yours was deeper than mine, but it was the deepest I've felt. Or maybe it was a different kind of depth, because what I felt was how love could heal, how perfect it can be, and then how powerful it can cut twice as deep again.

I don't know about you, but I don't jump in and out of people's lives.

I know some of your story, and you know mine. Maybe we have helped each other through something, I don't know. But honestly, I don't even know if I miss you. Sorry to being rather brutally honest, but it's what I feel.

But again, you most likely don't read my blog. Rather, who does anyways? I wonder who reads this. I really do.

People change. It's not because they learn certain something from others, I don't think, but rather they already have it in them, and encounters simply bring out those beliefs and make them more applicable and practical than they have been. Those beliefs may not be desirable, but maybe they work for whatever circumstances.

Yes, my mind is really cramped.

I most likely won't even read this anymore after typing this out. Just because it's too chaotic.

Now I'm even more interested as to who reads any of this.

But I guess I just want to wish you luck in all that you do. 'Course, you might come to me when something happens, and that's fine with me, since I guess those will only be the times when I can see you. And congrats, on a few things, since you are in my opinion one of the lucky ones.

Later, E.

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I didn't wait for change. I worked to make it happen.

I want to be able to move on to the point that I no longer feel anything when I think about the past. I don't know if that's possible. Maybe this is too naive. Maybe I just need to feel whatever I feel every time I've reminded of all that, and not be affected. Make my feelings. Maybe that's what I need to work on.

Maybe I should work on getting zero view in 48 hours so the graph thing is flat.

Wasted too much time here, later, mind.

 

productive or overwhelming?

Original plan was that I could relax after my ecology exam. But noooo, I have so much work also due within the next two days: anthropology reading, physics, physics LAB, and orgo OWLs. I just finished orgo and gonna start anthro like now. It's just so much work and I want a nap instead. =/

CRC in like 25 mins. Heading down now....