finals chaos

Wow I haven't posted in a while, terribly sorry guys :( It's close to finals week and it's all what I have been preparing for. 


Well, I don't remember much of what has happened after I posted the last entry....so I guess I'll just update mah reader on my plan for the day~


Gonna go grab lunch soon. 
Then getting my orgo lab OWLs outta the way
Then continue my scientific paper
Then go do physics take home with friends
Then go eat
Then go watch Flubber in the Bowl! :D 
If time allows, I'll play a game of LoL. 


Okkk, ttyl :) 

more letters

I've known Gravity by Sara Bareilles for a long time now. I've listened to it for a long time, and it's always been one of my favorites. 


But it wasn't until this morning when I realized what she meant. What the lyrics meant. 

I never wanted anything so much more than to drown in your love and not feel your rain. 

It haven't rained recently, but I figured it out. Well, I don't know if that's what she meant by her own lyrics, but this is what I felt, how I interpreted it. And you know, it's right, to not want to feel your rain but get drowned in your love instead; to not stand in the rain, let the molecules soak through your clothes, your skins, your bones, your soul, yet you are only trying to feel her soul, soaking through. Rain becomes her, and you become insignificant. Yet she's rain, and that's all she is. That's all she'll ever be, the periodic rain that sweeps you off your feet when it's here, then you're left in the cold when it's gone. But for some reason, you go back into the rain when it's here again, so you can just...feel. With that said...I still love the rain. Yes, the feeling may be true, but like I said, I still enjoy it. It reminds me again that there are things in this world that can touch my soul. And yea, it alllways reminds me of you, Ariel. Hope you are having fun back home :)


I think it is going to rain this weekend. I hope a storm comes. Ariel would love that. 


I can't keep blogging for too long because I have an exam in less than 4 hours, and I need more studying so I'm going to make this short. I got your letter(s) last night when I checked mail, and I read over it after finishing a lab report last night also. I gotta say, when I took the mail out of the mailbox, I was so excited that I finally got your letter x) Little did I realize that it was roughly four letters in one envelope until I opened it, and it gave me the best feeling in the world that I got mail in the mail. I guess I just want to say that noo, we are not on break or anything, I've just been really busy at random intervals and haven't been able to really blog well enough / read / write letters. If I find a good time to do so before finals and everything I will definitely do so, in which case would be next week/this weekend. But I must say, in the least, that I missed you and our conversations. You're right, it needs to happen again, soon if not during summer. *hug* 


On another note, it's my rooommate's birthday today :) Maybe we'll get wings, maybe we won't. Probably play cards, I think. Anyways, we will sure find something fun to do after my exam at 7. 


I guess I should head off now. Gotta go to a review session in an hour and a half. Best luck to exam-takers hah x) 

these dreams..

Yeeeaaaaa, so I went to sleep late again, BUT I was working so it was fine. Sorta. 


Maybe I'm getting these..dreams because I've been sleeping too late. 


But I dreamed about...eh nevermind. It's not a big deal. I couldn't remember her face anyways, plus, what's the point. 


Neeeed food. Nomnom time. Later!

before you knew that I was here

Yea, sorry for the little hiatus too on the blog. 
Well a few things first. I haven't had much time to blog / do much other things other than studying these days (yeaaa sorry. Luckily it's the long weekend and I do not have any labs next week-even though I have a lab report due and two the next week...) Oh yea I have two exams next week also. I guess I can't relax too much this weekend either, can I...and oh yea there's genetics mapping stuff also. Great. So that's...let's see, orgo, molecular bio, genetics, physics, and biochem lab. Oh damn. 


So I got back into the card game Mao. It's honestly one of the most frustrating and confusing yet intense and hilarious card game I've ever played. Last time I played was last year back when I still had the quad. First time was absolutely terrible; I was terrible at the game and had clearly no clue what the hell was going on and had like 15 cards constantly. I think I gave up that game after like, 3 rounds lol. But now getting back into it, it's so much fun! 


Also, I got to learn how to play Spades (legitimately this time and not just random clicks on the computer like a few days ago haha) It's actually a very strategic game...wasn't expecting that but it's still fun though, from what I've picked up. 

A few more things before I head off (it's 3:30am...) I kinda realized that for a little bit, I think I was being slightly selfish when I constantly wish people, someone, would throw up the words "what's your story" in my face. I realized that yes, I want to listen to others' stories but there's no way of doing that with a good approach unless the topic comes up, and seriously speaking, it's rather a sensitive topic and not everyone is comfortable talking about it. This applies even more when someone you don't really know asks you about it, about your story. It depends on so many different things, your mood that day, what you ate, whether you're stressed or not, whether you like the person or not, etc. 


I'm saying that I found myself wanting people to tell me their story without me asking. That's such a selfish thought that now I think of it, it's just stupid and pathetic. =/ Like, if someone asks me about my story, it's very likely that I will spend time on that topic if they want to listen, but I just automatically assumed that everyone is like me on the matter. Plus, one flaw being that I don't even ask people about their stories (I guess partly because there haven't been good chances too?), this is totally contradicting. 


I miss my river spot :( 


Okay I don't even know where I'm going with that. I'm tired and need sleep. 


And I reallllllly need to get back on my penpal's letter. It takes like 3 weeks or something to get there =/ I know it's like half way across the globe but seriously, three weeks? It's like, you only talk twelve times each year. It sounds so sad :( It's sad because receiving a letter is this amazing feeling that I think everyone should experience. Not just an ordinary mail but rather a letter from a friend, handwritten and script-y and stuff. That feeling warms my heart. 


On another note, I ordered a new mouse :D It is the Cooler Masters Inferno Gaming Mouse. I was looking at mice and this was probably the cheapest one I could find that had side buttons and a decent-looking gaming mouse. It's a bit larger than what mine is but since mine's dying fast...I need a new one fast x.x I think it should arrive on Tuesday. I'm purrrrtty excited :D 


Well, it's 3:50, need to sleep now. G'night guys, the 0.00000000000001% of the people whom I think actually read my blog x) G'night to everyone else also. 

that hell week

So, not sure if I blogged about this earlier, but the week before spring break was an absolute  hell week for me; three labs and two exams, within 4 days. I was also sick that week, so honestly that week was brutal. I survived, only with one price, and that is one lab report was written terribly. 


The sad thing is now I'm rewriting it and I realized that it wasn't even that hard of an assignment...but for some reason my group and I worked on it for 5+ hours on it that Friday until 2am in the morning, and still got terrible grades. 


College, I tell you, can mess you up big time. QQ 


Oh, on another note, we might be stuck in SW because everyone's screwed for housing. Except for incoming freshmen and upcoming sophomores. Pretty much we missed the priority by one year, but I think they're taking in more people so I guess it's not that bad. If we are upcoming sophomores we would have been drawn for housing from a much much larger pool, and that will never be in our favor. 


Anyways, I am starving and need food. 

emotional blogger?

Yea, so the term "emotional blogger" came up when I was I talking to some friends. 


So what exactly did I mean by that? Yes I was talking about myself, I guess just comparing to them being "emotional tumblr's" 


Actually, I just went on a huge tumblr spree. And now it's 3am. I'll blog tomorrow...


G'night :) 

this is so perfect

This.

No words. I think it was what I was looking for all along. Heh. Someone to take away my loneliness. 


Okkkkkkk back to homework. 

ironic

A friend was having a bad day and didn't sleep well. 


And what are the odds that lelove updated a post with someone who also just went through a similar thing? 


Write it out. Write out everything that is on your mind. It will help. Writing out my mind and thoughts have always helped me, and you should try it if you haven't. 


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On another note, I guess I'm a little surprised that one of my best friends mistaken my birthday for my April fools one. I guess...it was expected too, not like it means anything since it was a prank, but I guess I was half-expecting it. I already had a feeling that we're drifting apart since we haven't talked in forever. afiejafkdhafueipwafhjlkf.


Gonna go read Hunger Games, then lunch, then lab. The weather is amazing out, hopefully I can find someone to play tennis.