all nighters

....LAN parties, and 6am breakfasts. Haven't done this in a while x) Kinda not healthy, but that's why the rarity. I also realized two things. 
One: still haven't finalized my build for Wukong. 
Two: All-nighters make you feel like you're floating in water. 


All and all, the party was fun. LoL, watched My Little Ponies for an hour (honestly don't know why but it was great), some Terreria, some played Pandemic, and then we went for breakfast at Franny's around 6am. 


Parents were a bit hesitant since I didn't tell them that it was an all-nighter, but then again, if only I knew also...


And my dad wasn't feeling well so my mom brought him to the hospital for tests. He's gonna stay overnight for observation. He should be fine. He exaggerates a lot, but just in case, ya know. He's just too tired and stressed. 


Pushing back my Boston plan till Saturday. Oh well. 


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On another note, I got another pen pal! And another follower! *happyface* 


I think I'm gonna make a Yellowcard image for tumblr or something. Probably will do that tmw. 


A little Skyrim and calling it a night. Oyasumi. 


-l.h- 

just like old times

There's a LAN party tonight, planned around 7pm at a friend's house till whenever, a potential sleep over also. I probably won't sleep over, but a good-old LAN party is probably overdue by now x) 


On another note, I went to this Korean restaurant in Boston the other day, and while it was the first time I tried Korean food, and I gotta say, it was amazing. Here's the place: 


http://www.koreangardenboston.com/

It might have been expensive ($30 for me...) probably because I was with my cousin. And friends. I kinda ordered two meals, hence the 30. Other than that I think it's not that expensive and pretty much in price range. 


With that note, I might go there again with some of my other friends. :) 


Oh, and I wonder how long it takes for le love to update.... x) 

perspective

I said it's okay to not know what you want, as long as you know what you don't want. Because you know, she had just broken up with me, and I wasn't sure what it was between us. I didn't know much then, like why she lied to me, or why she rubbed everything in my face. 


But what I did know what I didn't want to lose you, because then you're the one person who was there for me. You were struggling with your breakup about a year ago too, and that's why I said that to you, so that you know what you don't want. 


I was wrong.


So what was it that you didn't want? I've told you my side of the story, but you told me part of yours, but not what you didn't want. Maybe if we weren't writing to each other, maybe if you didn't say those words, I wouldn't have let myself free and give all of my heart to you. Yes, I was still broken then. Yes, your heart wasn't healed yet either. But somehow we found each other and we healed each other. I know we weren't actually together, but we were close, the closest probably I've ever been with anyone. I didn't want you to be a rebound, but it was all too late when you got all of my heart, with your letter. I loved you with all that was left of me, if any. 


Spring break could have been the best break. But, you didn't know what you wanted. 


And you left. You left for someone out of the blue. Just like that, he had you. You know, it feels like 500 Days of Summer. 

"I woke up one morning and just knew"
"Knew what?"
"What I was never sure of with you." 

Just like that, you're gone. Your letters, your words, your breathe, meant nothing. I thought we healed each other, and that it meant something, that we meant something, but no, you used me to heal yourself, and now that you're healed and ready to move on, I'm simply cast aside, everything lost again. 


You said you didn't want to lose me either. What happen, C, what happened? 


It was a right choice, you know, when I decided to not go to that Christmas party. From what I heard, it consisted of you making out with him all party. It's almost a year, and I don't want you rubbing that in my face again. Yes, I've lost a best friend, to whom I told everything, shared everything. who gave the best hugs. I've lost faith, because just when I thought we shared something, you were just using me. 


Your letters, gifts, all of you, I tried to keep them locked away in a box. I tried to move on, but now I'm afraid to love again. You see-you know this best-when I give my heart out, I give it all out, just like how you had it. 


Maybe I just need a hug. I don't need...all this relationship thing. It was because I didn't know what I wanted. 


Now I do. 


If only a hug doesn't remind me of you...




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Going to submit this to le love. Hope everyone's having a good day. 

we had the right love at the wrong time

I've thought about it, and I've decided to write a le love article and submit it. More to come. 


-l.h- 


Edit* It ended up being this.

Merry Christmas!

Kinda late, but Merry Christmas guys :) I hope everyone had a lovely and company-filled holiday with delicious food and fun times.

blu rays, why you so confusing

I have been wrestling with this blu ray and mkv conversion deal for almost 10 hours now and I still can't get Limitless to play on the tv. Ahhhhhhh damnit. 


I wish I have blank BD's. 

fear

I know why I feel lonely now. Because I am afraid.
I'm afraid falling in love again.
I'm afraid of being in a relationship. I'm afraid of being the one who loves more.
I'm afraid not of rejection but fakeness.
I'm afraid of loving too much.
But it's always happening. It still is.
I'm afraid I have distant myself too far now. Going back is going to be difficult, because I do not know how.
Will there be someone who can lead me back?
It's gonna be a long night.

16 and dropping

I think it is worthy to note that after I came home from college the weather suddenly dropped 20 degrees. I actually brought my scarf over to college and back, never used it, and I took it out just yesterday for the 16-degree weather. Interesting, eh? 


Finally got a haircut today, my hair is unbelievably bushy. =.=|


Another note, this facebook timeline thing is kinda ridiculous. Facebook is so constantly challenging people's visual analytic skills, now with that timeline thing right in the middle of the page. And they still need to fix the chat box. 


Speaking of that, Google+ is still kinda in the dark corner...oh well. 


There is apparently this promotion thing for tumblr. I'm still confused. Haha. 


Got back to LoL...so rusty....